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I’ve got an internal conflict going on in my head. One is standing by my choice to stay home and not work at a “job” while I focus on school , and the other is to get a job and start working somewhere so I can save money for my trip to New York to see Ibby sing at Carnage Hall.
The trouble is that in getting a job I won’t have the flexibility of taking off during stressful test weeks, or leaving for the summer because I plan to take 4 summer double speed jam packed classes which will leave me unavailable except during the hours of 1 and 3 am, while I’m sleeping. So I’m torn.
I think I might hit up the temp agencies, maybe even see about substitute teaching. I had picked up an application for Sci-Port, The Robinson Film Center, and Hobby Lobby… but thinking about not having much control over when I DONT work makes me nervous.
I might try to come up with some other ways to make money. I’ve been wanting to start crafting, and mom had my sewing machine fixed so I can start working on this quilt I’ve got all the fabric for. I’ve got an entire room I could use to start working on art and photography and other things I could do to help out.
That’s another thing… we didn’t intend to not have a roommate when I was laid off. So my student loan has been eaten up with rent obligations and increased utilities… However our track record with roommates have been dismal and neither of us are really in a hurry to find another.
We could move, and we looked to do that, however the homes we could afford on one income are limited, and we live in a safe and beautiful environment now… both of us hate to change it. Few apartments allow big dogs, and Honey doesn’t want to live anywhere but with us… and vice versa.
So, my options are numerous, but my desires limit them. I want to be able to stay home, so I can study and read and fulfill my creativity like I do now. I want the flexibility of being able to chose when I do something and feel that I’ve really discovered many things about myself during this time.
I’m just getting this all out on screen so I can get a better idea of what I really want. I think substituting and temp work might be fun and exciting I guess. I hope I can find hours that are conducive to my oddly arranged school schedule.
Blarg.
So I was a little iffy on our wedding/reception location… I still am, but I’m dealing. I don’t want to get ahead of myself and pick a location that I might find more desirable, then realize I’ve forgotten something big COMPLETELY and have to cut something else I really like. I’m sure I can save money on decor by doing a lot of the stuff myself… but flowers, food, music and location are key elements to the event and carry a premium price tag.
While I’m not a “fancy” person, and my “unique” sense of style is mostly derived from whatever happens to be on sale at the moment, I still like for things to be well designed. There is nothing I like more than to create something that’s pleasing to the eye and yet generally filled with irony. I realized that I was not unique when my wonderful friend Perri got me a book called “Stuff White People Like” which is pretty spot on in a mildly offensive way (you can check out the website here.)
Anyway, so I find my chest tightening each time I hear numbers that have too many zero’s behind them flashing across my screen when I’m searching for “suggested minimum price for…” I’ve gotten nauseous twice upon realization that something I had gotten my hopes up a little bit for was a bit further out of my price range than I had hoped. So today we searched for venue’s and we stopped at one.
For those of you who don’t know I’m an avid star buff. I enjoy astronomy and have been a universal trivia geek for quite some time. I thought, I wonder if they’d rent out the planetarium? Turns out they do, and it’s not terribly priced at 500 for the night. They let us play with all of their exhibits and Gregg, who runs their projector and talked with us for over an hour and let us play with the projector and stuff. He showed us a lot of the features, and it is apparently the most state of the art projector on the planet.
Life looks so much better from here.
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